[	mood	|	lazy	]
[	music	|	Fall Out Boy	]

another eventful weekend in wonderful tallahassee...

Friday Night: I think i just stayed home, how pathetic is it that i can't even remember?

Saturday: Worked 9-5, sucks because we close at 4. all the stylists were very bitchy and for whatever reason I was feeling emotional and wanted to cry. I bust my ass so that they are satisfied and get completely taken advantage of all the time. My boss got mad at me because she called me Thursday & Friday, my days off mind you, and I didn't answer. I basically told her I don't get paid enough to be on call, and the new girl was working. I don't want to take shifts away from her. I wasn't home Thursday because I had a doctors appointment, and Friday I had to catch up on sleep before I collapsed. After work, I came home and vented to Mike and then my mom. Mom made me happy by asking what I want for Christmas. My aunt says she better start sucking up for everything she's put us through, I said my love can be bought and there better be a hell of a lot of presents under that tree. Then Mike came over and we watched Serendipity. I've missed him, I hadn't seen him since Monday because he had finals until Friday. Then he left early because he had to work at 6:15 this morning and then drive home to Tampa. After he left Amber called, said they were all drinking at her place, so I headed over there. On my way over Mike calls, I was all worried because he had only left a little while ago, and we had already said goodnight. Turns out that another one of his friends in Tampa died. It's just terrible. The first guy, Shane (they weren't close, but they went to high school together) died in a motorcycle accident earlier in the week, and tons of people headed to Tampa for the funeral. I guess this guy was a friend of his, and he overdosed. I think he might not have been able to handle losing his friend, but I'm not sure. I didn't know them. It's just awful, I mean two people from their high school in a week? I feel so bad for my Tampa boys. So I asked Mike if he wanted me to come see him, but he was going to bed, he just wanted to let me know. He wasn't very close to either of them I guess, but it was just very disturbing. Anyway, I was a little shaken, but I promised Amber I'd hang out with them. So we went, did a little drinking, they tried to get me into Bullwinkle's, bad idea because you have to be 21. They took Amber's old ID, which was the one I was using. Then we stopped by her friends house, then I came home and crawled into bed.

Sunday: Today was pretty uneventful. I slept in, got ready, talked to Kris when she got back from Orlando, talked to Mikey on his way out of town. (he still hasn't called, I hope he got back okay.) Then I went to the mall and bought these gorgeous AE earrings for my sister for Christmas. I wish I could just buy everything for her, lol...she deserves it. maybe some day when i'm rich and famous ;o) Then i stopped by Starbucks to see Kris on her break, we chatted for a lil bit. Thank God I know the manager or else they'd probably think I was a freak, I asked for a cookie and a glass of milk, lol. just a craving I guess. Then I went for a little drive around town.

Do you ever think about what you were doing this time last year? Abe and I's one year anniversery was approaching and as I was walking by the jewelry stores today, I thought of the promise rings we bought each other last year. the same ones he threw into my neighbors yard a week later. he was mad because i got my belly button pierced and he thought I just wanted to show it off to other guys. He said that "If the ring in my belly button was more important than the ring on my finger, than I didn't deserve it." Then he threw the one I gave him, and I gave him the other one back and he threw that one too. Things were so different then, I was growing apart and burning bridges with friends I had known forever. I had no self esteem and things with my parents marriage were falling apart. I was stuck inside a world I hated. Now things are so different. I am so close to all of my friends, but they're different friends than I had in high school. I still talk to people from high school, but I guess a part of me just needed to separate myself from them. Even if they had nothing to do with it, they still remind of a time were I was so low. I live in a new place, and I am almost completely self-sufficient-paying my own bills, working, and being a full-time student. My parents have since gotten back together, and I can't tell if that's a good thing or a bad thing yet. My sister and I are closer than ever before, and then there is Mike. Michael David Maslar, he is completely amazing. He's just...so like me. He's absolutely adorable. After the summer, I was pretty sure that we would just be the people who see each other at a party, say an awkward hello, and keep walking. But now, things have changed. I'm just so happy with the way things are in my life right now. He left for tampa today, and I miss him already. He'll be back on Tuesday, but I just get used to seeing him every day, that sometimes I get a little selfish. I got him an awesome Christmas present too. It was this Sports Illustrated stuff we was on ESPN, and I tracked it down and ordered it and I'm having it sent to his house. I really like him, I have a feeling this will work out.

well, I am going to get back to watching how to lose a guy in 10 days, awesome movie! leave some love <3

***k